Fear of losing my children

http://amanda-richert.blogspot.com/2012/11/fear-of-losing-my-children-i-watched.html

I watched a movie a few weeks ago that had a parent losing a child. My eyes teared up as I imagined myself in the same position. I did not want to write about this at first because I didn't think this was a fear that really has any control over me, well, to be more precise, a fear that I had allowed myself to be controlled by, but I realize that I do have this fear, otherwise I wouldn't have cried when watching the movie. So I will write about my fear of losing my children and apply self forgiveness accordingly, and get this shit out of my system!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to follow the thought “I could lose my children and I wouldn't be able to bear it.” to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to – through participation within the thought “ I could lose my children and I wouldn't be able to bear it.” - become fearful and sad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the thought “ I could lose my children and I wouldn't be able to bear it.” to an emotional experience of fear and sadness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within an emotional experience of fear and sadness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into an emotional experience of fear and sadness because I realize that even though I am doing and always will do everything in my ability to protect them, I am not able to fully control what happens to my children or when they die.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect “losing my children” to fear and thus - I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my creation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect “losing my creation” to fear and thus – I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to exist as fear of loss.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing “fear of loss” to be the very nature of who I am.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create from a starting point of “fear of loss”, instead of realizing that my creation is equal and one as me and therefore, I cannot lose my creation because my creation is me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that fear is real.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to question my fear.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that fear is self created.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate in fear.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I experience fear that I am actually only fearing myself.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that fear is only a pre-programmed reaction.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that the purpose of fear is to keep me from realizing myself as who I am as all life, one and equal.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is ever a valid reason to allow the experience of fear.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am responsible for allowing myself to experience fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become mentally attached to my children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a dependency to this mental attachment to my children that I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself by this mental attachment I have created with my children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am separate from my children by creating this dependency on being with them, when I already am with them as life as one as equal as life's entity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing myself through fearing this loss of my definition of myself with my children instead of realizing that I am as they are equal and one as life.

When and as I begin to fear losing my children, I stop, I breathe, and I do not accept and allow fear to consume me. Instead I realize and understand that fear is not real, but only an emotion I am conjuring up and allowing, and that it is only myself that I am “fearing”. I realize that fear is only a distraction from what is here, as myself as life, and I no longer allow this emotion to exist within me to distract me or to separate me from who I am and who we are as one life as equal.