Day 3 on my 7yr Journey to nothingness: 'Don't give up!'

I have been feeling like I can't keep up with this. I have hit a time when I have so much work to do and the DIP on top of it. The 'easy in the moment' route would be to quit DIP, so I have ample time to do everything else that needs to be done, but I am not in this for the momentarily easy way, I am in this to fix me and it is going to take a long time. I need to stay dedicated to this, I can't just give up when the going gets tough.

In my past I studied at Southeastern Louisiana University for six years and still didn't earn my degree. The first few years I changed my major a few times. It is not easy picking out the one thing a person wants to do in life to survive. The talents I have inherited and are interested in are on the artistic side, and therefore don't usually offer much stability in the job market. I eventually decided on exercise health in science because I was already a personal trainer and enjoyed sculpting my body, having control over my strength, endurance, and overall health. Yet I had to quit training people once I became pregnant and dropped out of school once the baby was born. I planned the baby, both of them, so I really dropped out because I wasn't in the mood for that anymore, I was ready to be a mom.

So I have this past of not completing things and it is catching up with me, well it is still in my head, affecting how I feel about my capabilities of sticking things through in the present. I want the easy way out, yet in this case, it isn't going to be the easy way in the long run. So I have to stop allowing myself to follow this particular mind pattern. I am sticking with this, because my only other choice will waste a lot of time. I know if I did quit I would definitely come back, there is no other way to live but honestly, and that is exactly what Desteni is about.

So because I am exhausted, and I still need to bathe my puppy in her medicated shampoo, and take care of my 4yr old, I am going to continue on with SF tomorrow. At least I am still sticking this out, doing what I am capable.